It was a roller coaster of emotions.

One minute getting the worst news of losing a friend unexpectedly.

The next minute having something I had been praying about answered so magnificently.

Devastated and joyful in such a short span of time.

One moment life makes sense.

And then it makes no sense at all.

Is that how the disciples felt?

During this Holy Week, I reflected on those last days Jesus spent with His inner circle.

It must have been a roller coaster of emotions.

One moment the crowds are cheering for Jesus and treating Him like royalty.

“Most of the crowd spread their cloaks on the road, and others cut branches from the trees and spread them on the road. And the crowds that went before Him and that followed Him were shouting, “Hosanna to the Son of David! Blessed is He who comes in the name of the Lord! Hosanna in the highest!”  Matthew 21: 8-9 ESV

The next they are yelling for Him to be crucified, treating Him like a criminal.

“And Pilate again said to them, “Then what shall I do with the man you call the King of the Jews?”  And they cried out again, “Crucify Him.” And Pilate said to them, “Why? What evil has He done?” But they shouted all the more, “Crucify Him.” Mark 15: 12-14 ESV

One moment life makes sense.

And then it makes no sense at all.

Jesus was sitting with His disciples to share a meal, and then gets up to wash their feet.

“ Now before the Feast of the Passover, when Jesus knew that His hour had come to depart out of this world to the Father, having loved His own who were in the world, He loved them to the end. During supper, when the devil had already put it into the heart of Judas Iscariot, Simon’s son, to betray Him, Jesus, knowing that the Father had given all things into His hands, and that He had come from God and was going back to God, rose from supper. He laid aside His outer garments, and taking a towel, tied it around His waist. Then He poured water into a basin and began to wash the disciples’ feet and to wipe them with the towel that was wrapped around Him. He came to Simon Peter, who said to Him, “Lord, do you wash my feet?”  Jesus answered him, “What I am doing you do not understand now, but afterward you will understand.” John 13: 1-7 ESV.

It did not make sense to Peter at that moment, the one he called Master washing his feet.

Eventually he would come to understand.

But friends, it is not the washing of the feet that speaks to me in this passage.

It is that Jesus, knowing all that He did: that Judas would betray Him and Peter would deny Him, loved them to the end.

Read that again. 

“Now before the Feast of the Passover, when Jesus knew that His hour had come to depart out of this world to the Father, having loved His own who were in the world, 

He loved them to the end. “ John 13:1 ESV

Someone needs to hear this.

Friends, we are His own who are in this world.

Somedays, it might not make sense.

Have you ever asked yourself this: how could He love someone like me, knowing what I have done?

But God’s word reminds us that even if it doesn’t make sense, He loves us until the end.

Even when we deny Him.

Even when we betray Him.

Even when we put other things before Him and follow the crowd.

He loves us to the end.

He went to the cross knowing and gave Himself anyway.

May you know that Jesus loves you to the end, friends.